Thursday, May 28, 2009

I Watched Ken Park

I was just standing outside on the porch that's connected to my room. I was lighting my cigarette when I heard movement on a balcony a few houses over, so I lower my lighter and listen. Turns out, this guy came from the school of hard knocks. I was able to pick out keywords from his expletive-fueled rants: girlfriend, cheat, I wouldn't do that, I love you, please baby, etc. Of course, I couldn't see this guy at the time so I'm quietly eavesdropping, feeling slightly guilty for peering into this window I've been given.

There are a lot of heavy conversations I've had when I thought no one was listening. Once, when I was living with Michael and Heidi I took a call from my mom. We were two hours away from each other and pissed off, so we verbally abused one another over the phone - the whole time, Mike and Heidi were in a room above me and could hear me down below, stalking around like a bat out of hell. I'm not normally an angry or aggressive person, but if I'm emotionally invested in what's going on, I don't care who's within earshot.

The guy, the one from outside: he went back into his apartment. I heard his sliding screen door shut just a second ago. He's probably livid at the fact that he royally screwed up by gettin' it on with another girl...

And of course, he probably doesn't think it's his fault.


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Mushrooms

Justin:


I just want to tell... dont' be sorry... don't be sorry. This is posible. Things that are happening now...Muhrooms make everything in the world the best they could possibly be. Nothing is tangible and the universe is here


Keith:


as long as...

as long as i can tipe


it's impossible to know what i'm trying to look at, itlss too far aay.


what are we listening to

slowly the day break is her=


and softer, you rain.d..


wha is this should i continue? what is thias that i'm doing it almost seems poetic whatr i'm doing here. it all fitys what i'm thinking sort of a dread. ohhhhi look down

and i can't


this is whatever it is ups and downs. all of it. surrender to it. i don't wanna.